Just Like That

I  had envisioned that moment being entirely different. I had it all played out in my mind & I was going to walk out of that room with a smile.

Unfortunately, sometimes that is not how the cards fall.

I had my follow-up appointment earlier this week with my pain clinic doctor. After two injections, I had found zero relief. In fact, I seemed to have had flare-ups after both of them instead of improvement.

So, he said we would not proceed with anymore of those. Basically, the plan of action is a huge increase in my prescription medicines and to work hard at physical therapy.

That was all he had for me.

The problem is the fact that there is zero cure for CRPS/RSD. Statistics show that only a small percentage of people ever find themselves in remission & it seems the constant theme is that however long remission might last, the disease eventually makes an extremely vengeful return with a big increase in symptoms & has spread to more limbs of the body.

Sounds fun, huh?

I  am not a pill-taker. Prior to surgery, I hated even taking Tylenol! My prescriptions do not make me feel well at all. At times I will feel light-headed or dizzy, extremely nauseous, and really I just want to sleep all day with them. Upon a handful of other side effects.

So, I am on a mission doing a huge amount of research for other options or opinions. However, today is day two on my increased doses & actually I can finally feel a break of the constant high nerve pain. The swelling has also finally dropped; this is the smallest my foot has been in months.

This morning at physical therapy I truly felt the progress being made. With the surgery I had & the CRPS on top of it, I have to accept the tiny little baby steps I am making & those have to be enough. I will admit that this is hard for me as I am kind of a go hard & get things done!

But, I am so thankful & grateful for finally feeling like I am improving regardless of how long the road ahead of me is.

Besides, at PT on the bike I raced against the person I was on Monday & I beat that one mile mark by 45 seconds today.

Just like that, I am stronger today.

Until Next Time~