Ever make one?
I have.
Pretty sure I make them daily.
Okay, not sure….positive.
In the last year I have truly stripped myself down to the core.
I have questioned myself, I have dug deep, I have pushed myself over the edge.
I have taken deep looks at the most inner layer of myself…you know the layer most people want to ignore & pretend it doesn’t exist.
I had to accept my responsibility in my failings.
I had to look hard to find the reasons why things failed; what I did wrong instead of ignoring my faults & not accepting any blame.
I did some things very wrong; I made mistakes. I even would say I damaged some bridges I never meant to.
But, I was on a quest; a woman who had been so alone, so unloved, so unaccepted for so long that I did not even know who I was or who truly cared about me anymore.
I was living in a dark place screaming at the top of my lungs for help, for love, for someone to grab my hand.
In my yelling, I pushed some people away who maybe were there & I misunderstood them.
In my journey in the last year going from married to separated to divorced & then back in the world of dating all while finding the real *krisha* again there have been an endless amount of lessons.
I have.
Pretty sure I make them daily.
Okay, not sure….positive.
In the last year I have truly stripped myself down to the core.
I have questioned myself, I have dug deep, I have pushed myself over the edge.
I have taken deep looks at the most inner layer of myself…you know the layer most people want to ignore & pretend it doesn’t exist.
I had to accept my responsibility in my failings.
I had to look hard to find the reasons why things failed; what I did wrong instead of ignoring my faults & not accepting any blame.
I did some things very wrong; I made mistakes. I even would say I damaged some bridges I never meant to.
But, I was on a quest; a woman who had been so alone, so unloved, so unaccepted for so long that I did not even know who I was or who truly cared about me anymore.
I was living in a dark place screaming at the top of my lungs for help, for love, for someone to grab my hand.
In my yelling, I pushed some people away who maybe were there & I misunderstood them.
In my journey in the last year going from married to separated to divorced & then back in the world of dating all while finding the real *krisha* again there have been an endless amount of lessons.
Lessons that I will be beginning to share on here.
For starters, my biggest one:
Accept your journey & understand that others will not understand it or might judge you on it but its your journey, your life….only you know what has happened. Only you can change your direction. Your happiness matters & trust that you deserve a beautiful life.
So, yes, I was part of a failed marriage. I have made mistakes. I have done things I wish I could change.
Some choices I will always stand by & know they were the absolute best for my future no matter how hard they were to make or life-changing they might have been.
This is my journey; I am learning & I am growing daily. I admit to my failures, my imperfections, my short-comings. But I will also admit to my positives, my successes: I’m passionate about the people in my life & about my activities, I always give more than 100%, I so completely love to help other people, I’m hard working, and I love hard & give big.
My mistakes do not define me. I will make more mistakes as I travel. But, if I am willing to admit to them, to accept them as my mistakes they can only help guide me down the road. I am more than just my mistakes & I fully believe my future is going to be filled with all of the best things life has to offer.
My dark days are over; my smiles are real. I am who I am, mistakes & all.
Until Next Time~
*krisha*
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