Fearless Again

For months, I have started every workout with some fear. Fear of more damage. Fear of pain. Fear of never recovering.

Now, I have an answer to my pain. If you missed my post yesterday on social media I have what is called cavus foot. Basically, I was born with extremely high arches. Over time my foot has developed a deformity from it that causes me to walk very much on the outside of my foot. When standing my doctor could see signs of this condition all the way up to my knee. Related to this deformity is several muscle & tendon issues in my leg explaining so much of what I have been experiencing.

Step one is trying custom orthotics to see if they will relieve my pain. If they do not, surgery can happen but is pretty involved between the bones in my foot & lengthening my calf muscle. But, the positive is that I cannot do more damage. I have zero restrictions now & the doctor told me I can do whatever I would like as long as I can handle the pain.

So, this morning I felt like a brand new person! It felt like it was a brand new journey but this time, not because I’m re-starting because I haven’t quit, but because I finally know what I’m up against! I didn’t have to operate with fear of hurting myself further or questioning what caused it in the first place.

I felt fearless again as I pushed as hard as I could & in the moment I felt free. I felt like me

Today I began a new round of my latest workout program! I was very happy with my first round of 30 days while being on such big restrictions so now I want to see what I can accomplish, but still listening to my body, obviously.Of course I debated about waiting until after the Holidays. But, I decided to start now. Why wait? I know committing to this now will help me stay on track without lame excuses for the next two weeks. Starting now will give me a much better balance over the holidays as opposed to allowing myself too many temptations! For me, I know not being fully focused for the next two weeks will set my progress back much further than just two weeks. I know me.

I am going all in & going all out with sharing this journey fully here so stay tuned to how things are working & what I am eating; my struggles & my victories.

I am promising full disclosure & complete transparency in my journey. These pictures will show you very soon how I am doing.

Until Next Time~