I am going all in. I am throwing myself fully into this.
I will put myself out there for all; even those who will judge & dish out negativity. This is my journey & no one can stop me from traveling it.
I am doing this for me. Because, I know I am not where I want to be & I know I have the power to change that. I am doing this for others; to show that no one is perfect, to show my struggles & my victories, to show that perseverance is key. If I give one person out there a small handful of hope, sharing will be worth the vulnerability I feel right now.
I returned home from my coaching conference with a serious fire inside to truly help my challengers & keep them completely accountable to their goals. I committed to giving my challengers the ultimate one-on-one accountability because I am fully passionate about helping them write the pages of their transformation story & this year, we will write some incredible ones together!
But, who was I going to be accountable to? Them + you = my story.
Every Wednesday (Weigh-in Wednesday), I have to share my progress with them in my group & I am going to share it here, with you.
Yes, even the weeks I traveled backwards or just completely fell flat on my face. This will not be the highlight reel of weight loss. Weight loss is hard. Being overweight is hard.
Yes, weight loss, because I am not where I want to be. No, it is not tied to a specific number on the scale but I cannot lie that currently it is higher than I once was; I have clothes in my closet I can wear but I do not LOVE how they fit me.
But, I have the power to change that. But, I also am committed to not looking back & wanting to look like a past version of me. There have been versions that got to a spot in a very unhealthy way. The main one was two years ago while training for a marathon & the start of my separation followed by my divorce. I did not eat. I drank wine. But, I did not eat. I did not feel like eating; it wasn’t because I was trying to get skinny; I just did not deal with the stress & the emotions in a positive or healthy way. I was in a dark & deep place.
So, moving on to creating the best me today.
Currently, I am in training for a marathon & am supplementing my running with Insanity Max 30, which I have fallen in love with.
I intended on taking all of my progress pictures in my swimsuit to truly share my progress but this morning I could not find the bottoms of my swimsuit. So, today you get this. The picture on the left was taken on July 21st as last week being out of town I did not take one. The one on the right was this morning.
You can see some changes. My scale reflects a loss of 3.9 from 7/21 to today. That includes a 5 day trip to Nashville where I did indulge a little here and there.
Here comes the scary part. I put on this swimsuit recently & wanted to cry; actually these pictures were also taken on 7/21. It’s possible I did, in fact, cry. I realized how much I had been “off” or how much I had been struggling. Maybe it was just not being fully honest with myself.
I don’t really care, honestly. Because I am changing it. I will show you every week that this picture here, below, is changing. I am done standing still; I am here to make progress. I’m here to get back to where I want to be. I am putting my health at the top of my list & in a swimsuit, I cannot hide.
Until Next Time~
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