Totally not gonna lie today….I told myself this morning I was not going to do the Wednesday Weigh-in Link-up with Erin & Alex, I was not gonna talk about my scale this morning, I was just gonna be pissed All. Flippin’. Day.

Up…up 1.6 & back above 155 where I told myself I would not go AGAIN.

But, what person doesn’t struggle when trying to lose weight? Is there really any one out there who at some point in time when losing weight doesn’t want to pick up the scale & smash it into a hundred million pieces?

I really am a person who tries to always have a positive attitude. If I fail one day, I will tell myself tomorrow is a new day. If my scales goes up, despite maybe a moment of depression, I’ll remind myself that next week it will go down. I preach a positive mental attitude with my softball girls so I try to live it.

But today, today, I might just stay pissed at myself. Maybe being pissed at myself will light a fire under my butt again & give me the kick in it that it  obviously needs. This week came down to several choices & I made some sucky choices this week! Instead of one cheat meal, I had a couple, and some beers, and etc.

I am starting to think I might need a new & fresh approach. I have spent the past few days doing some research on clean eating. I will not lie that it scares me! I am not planning on going 100% clean, but focusing on it at least most of the time. The hardest part for me is my hubby & girls…..what in the heck will they eat? So, I’m gonna transition slowly & start changing things around the house & see how it goes. See how I feel & see if it gives my body a jumpstart because that is needed! Thinking I just need something different.

The biggie – okay this is HUGE for me. I just committed to Erin over at She’s a Big Star that I’m gonna go ONE WEEK with NO diet coke! Can I do it? I’ve been able to go a day or two without one but never longer than that. This is gonna be tough for me! But I have toyed around with the idea for months of cutting it out on my life so here. I. go. I will post here throughout the week – make sure I stick with it!

Later~
*krisha*

First of all….yesterday for Weigh-in Wednesday my scale read 155.6. Thursday is my Weight Watchers meeting day & I always step on my scale at home in the morning to have a little insight on what their scale will read. Seriously….it read 152.8! How happy ecstatic was I??!

Yesterday I also was a rockstar about squeezing in some exercise since I did not get my lazy butt outta bed in the morning! While my girls were eating their super fast supper (because we only have about 30 minutes by the time we walk in the door until the time we have to leave) before running them to AWANA I did TurboFire HIIT 15….holy amazeballs! That was a super tough 15 minutes! Then, after dropping them off at church I had my pitching sessions. While my High School girls were warming up with their drills I quickly ran a mile on the indoor track around our gym. I started wondering if I would be able to do a mile without walking since it has been FOREVER for me with running like that. Um…yes, I rocked it. I got done & my girls were super impressed that I had already ran a mile. It was 10:16 for a time. I was happy with that time but the best part was that I felt fantastic & if I had the time I so could have gone much further! 

Okay…moving on to today’s topic of “I Can’t.” When I’m coaching my high school softball girls, I live by the rule of “Can’t is a swear word.” It’s simply not allowed. Nothing bugs me more when you tell them some feedback on how to do something or what to do & without trying they say, “I can’t.”

If one of my girls say it they have to do push-ups, or run, or whatever I’m in the mood for that day. Why? Because you CAN. You can do it, you might need to work harder than the girl next to you, it might take you longer to learn it or master it, you might fail the first 100 times, but if you try hard enough & never give up you CAN do it.

Last night I was working with my niece who is in 8th grade on pitching. She has not loved pitching over the years but has worked on it to be an extra pitcher for her teams because she is an athlete. She has expressed some interest in wanting to work a little harder on it now but seriously was struggling with her confidence – she is used to things/sports coming very natural to her. Time after time of pushing her, encouraging her, explaining to her….she got IT. She got what I have been trying to tell her for two years. She accomplished what she told me she could not do & what she thought was impossible. I am not sure I have seen her so fired up, so confident, so happy. There was a fire, a passion, that was burning so bright when we were done.

I left smiling myself. I left thinking about how that is one of my most favorite parts of coaching. When you take an athlete who does what she said was impossible & they accomplish it & then you watch that fire & passion explode & she pushes herself even further than before. It made me think about all the times she told me “I can’t. It’s impossible.” This turned to me wondering why I don’t hold myself up to the same standards I expect out of my athlete? How can I preach something that I don’t follow? 

I thought about how many flippin’ times in a day I hear myself say that I can’t do something or that it’s impossible. Really? Wow, Krisha, ever hear the term “Practice what you preach.” 

So, I am gonna. No more I can’t do something. Because I can. I might fail numerous times. It might take me a heck of a lot longer to do something than the next person, but darn-it I CAN do it! I can lose this weight. I can do my half-marathon in 2013. I can get to my goal weight & maintain it. All I really have to do is try. And Try Hard. 

Until Next Time~
*krisha*

Okay here we are already! I am linking up again! I really cannot believe it’s hump day! Life has been hectic. My weight loss isn’t fantastic today but when your a momma sometimes life happens & schedules get screwed up!

 The scale this morning read: 

 So I’m down 0.2 from last week. I will take it. I had great plans this week for my workouts, my eating, all that good stuff, but had some events/problems come up that altered it. I did do great Friday – which is a huge victory for me! Saturday, I also planned fairly well during the day. Then, I went out with two girlfriends to a local winery we wanted to check out…always been a beer girl, but I am really started to like wine!

 This was my fave I bought from the winery, and yes, I did had to have a glass last night…just a small one!

 

It’s Wednesday. It’s hump day. It’s weigh-in day. It’s not a good weigh-in day. I’m up….I’m up 0.6 to 155.8 this week. Ugh! Why, oh why, do I do this to myself?

The good news is that after the weekend I had I jumped on my scale Monday morning & was horribly upset to see I was up to 157. So, I guess I did do some damage control over the past three days. But, I’m tired of that cycle. Really tired of it.

I have lost before. I lost 55 pounds on Weight Watchers. I maintained that loss for almost two years before I let it rise again. I know how to do it. I have ALL THE TOOLS to do it. It’s like I need a reset button on my mind & a fresh start. Maybe I need to forget I have lost that weight. Maybe I just need to think of me starting now from 155.8 and going back down. Forget the past journey & start this one out on a new path, a new road, a new starting weight of 155.8 instead of the original ## in my mind of 197.

I do know that one big huge difference from before to now that I really realize is that when I was losing successfully, I was at the top of my “list.” I was a top priority. No, that doesn’t mean I forgot about my hubby or my girls or the house or my job. But, I made my workouts a SUPER DUPER TOP PRIORITY and NEVER let myself get too busy taking care of anything or anyone else get in the way of that.

This weekend I let that happen a million several times….Saturday I couldn’t work out in the morning because I had to take Laynee to the med center for an ear infection. I knew that Friday night when I went to bed – I could have set my alarm to get up a little earlier & get my workout done. I didn’t. Then, my day was so packed full I could not get one in. Sunday, I actually did set my alarm to get up & workout in the morning before church & before all my housework & laundry & softball practice. I shut it off. I didn’t get up. Before, I would have gotten my butt outta bed & gotten it done.

So, this week my goal is to make ME a priority. Ask for help if I need it. I need to do what I need to do again….starting now.

One pic before I run off. I took my oldest daughter, Jacee, to the eye doc yesterday because she has been struggling with headaches at school a lot lately. Sure enough, this sassy little chic needs some specs. It took her forever to pick out the ones she wanted, but we let her do it on her own! She definitely was into the sassy fashionable ones! She cannot wait for them to get in!

Later~
*krisha*

Cannot believe it’s Wednesday again already!! Where did the week go?

Well, today’s weigh-in was better than last week.  Last week I was 156.3

Down 1.1 from last week! I didn’t do everything I told myself I was going to do this week. I didn’t track like I promised I would. I didn’t work out as much as I would.

But, for the first time in my life, I’m actually drinking all my water in a day! It is a serious miracle for me! Now, for the number of trips I make in a day to the bathroom – it’s steps on my fitbit every day! I also really made some much smarter food choices & as a family, we didn’t dine out at all this week with the exception of Applebee’s in which I made a super smart choice! 

I have increased my activity, although I am still so guilty of using lame excuses. Yes, my main excuse this week was that my shoulder pain was awful. Granted, it truly was for two days after my first real kick-my-butt rehab session on Monday, but really I can at least walk. So over my own excuses. When will I realize I am only cheating myself?

Oh well! For now, the scale is down and I’m finally making a healthy habit of drinking my H2O and increasing my steps on my fitbit on the way to the bathroom a million times a day! Maybe it’s just because I love my new water bottle! Ohh…the simple things in life!

 And for fun – my adorable oldest daughter because I love her outfit today & wish I could rock it like she is!

Until Next Time~
*krisha*

So here we go – it is hump day, or also known as Weigh-in Wednesday. Last week I was 155.9 and ready to kick the crap out of the scale for this week. I did stay mostly on-plan this week. I didn’t track seriously like I said I would…why is this so hard to do? Regardless, my food plan was very good this week!

Exercise – super excited here because hubby let me buy a treadmill on Sunday!! I used my Christmas bonus gift cards from work and that store had a decent one on sale. No, it’s not the top of the line or anything, but it is everything I need it to be and will make running in Michigan as a full-time working momma a heck of a lot easier! So, after not being able to workout since the end of the summer due to my shoulder, I ran/walked on it Monday evening & it felt AMAZING to sweat again! I only got in 2.3 miles but I know it’s gonna take some time for me to work back up to my “short” runs being a solid four miles. Tuesday morning I got up early and only did 20 minutes on it – my shoulder was quite sore & I’m being honest with myself on not pushing & overdoing the shoulder recovery. But, either way, I got in some exercise & felt GREAT! 

Then, I stepped on the scale this morning & it was up…..

0.4 from last week but up 1.4 from yesterday morning? What? I was instantly upset. I sat there going back through my week trying to figure out where I had gone wrong. 

But, then I told myself to chill, tomorrow it can be better. Maybe I’m just bloated, maybe it’s my body getting used to working out again, maybe I consumed too much sodium. 

But, maybe today I can just do better. Maybe today I can REALLY TRY to get all my water in. Maybe today I can try to go for a little walk on my treadmill (depending on my arm – so far it hasn’t been a very good shoulder day – you wouldn’t believe how every move you make impacts your shoulder joint/muscles). Maybe today I can track my food seriously – not the little chicken scratch way I typically do it.

That darn number on the scale holds so much “weight” on us. There was a time in the past I would have stepped off that scale & said “Screw it! My on-plan choices aren’t working anyway.” Then, I would have spend the remainder of the day consuming way too many calories! Yes, that number is important. It’s important to me and to my health. It’s a guide that gives me constant feedback – feedback that at times makes me want to pick up the scale & smash it into a million pieces while other times I want to kiss it. But it doesn’t define me. I’m not happy with it this week, but it is what it is. It has me confused. But, I can never understand why sometimes it goes up & sometimes it goes down so I’m gonna say that next week it WILL go down and today & tomorrow, I will do better.

Until Next Time
~krisha~

It is the start of a new year…is it time to make new goals? I will not call them resolutions. Resolutions are made to be broken in my eyes! That would be setting myself up for complete failure.

Goals, I like goals. Everyone should have a goal, something they are working towards. What are my goals for 2013? I don’t have them completely figure out quite yet. Such as the title of my blog, I am a work in progress!

Here is what I have so far:

Become a better mom: I need to spend more quality time with my girls. Stop the laundry, it is going to be there tomorrow….in fact there will be more there anyway! I am talking about the time spent playing board games, watching their movies, dance parties, the simple fun things they love that I often claim to be too busy to do.  Some day they will no longer want to dance with me and will be dancing with boys!

Here’s a picture from their super adorable concert the other day! Like they are completely adorable?!

Saving $$. It’s time for me to grow up financially. It is time for me to develop a budget and actually stick with it! It is time for me to learn how to save money and stop wasting it away on seriously stupid stuff that we do not want or need. This is the year where I will start paying down the debt we have on our loans!

Fitness. Get serious. I will tone this body this year! I will run my half-marathon in October. I do need to sit down and develop a calendar of races to keep myself going once I can actually start to run again! I will achieve my fitness goals this year. It is time to stop talking and start doing!

Eating. Time to do it better. I know that realistically I would probably not succeed if I said I wanted to go all clean eating. However, it is time to cut down on the processed junk we eat at home. It is also time for me to start planning meals out ahead of time and cooking at home. I mean, come one, I have 800 recipes pinned on Pinterest….I would say it is time to start using what I pin as opposed to just the act of pinning!

Be a better wife. Isn’t that the most obvious & most important? I used to think my girls needed to come first. That was until I read somewhere recently that my relationship with my husband should be first – some day my kids will move out of my house & it will just be the two of us. I want us to still be amazing.

 And I must add one family picture in too….because we are adorable! Don’t you think?!

So here I go. This is what I have so far. These are my goals. Yes, I do need to sit down and make them more specific and make them measurable to some extent so I can eventually jump up and down when I achieve them. It will take me some time to work out all the details….again I am a simple mom who is a work in progress….

Until Next Time
*krisha*

Here we go…a New Year! See ya 2012! That year was not a super healthy year for me! I struggled for half of it above my Weight Watchers goal weight & back to paying at meetings! Totally NOT cool! I had some struggles – shoulder surgery in the first part of November & from summer on had to stop running due to the pain being so awful. However, I should not have allowed myself to use that as an excuse – um…Hello, you can still focus on eating the right foods! But I didn’t. 

So MOVING on! I’m doing my first ever link-up with Erin & Alex for Weigh-in Wednesday to keep myself more accountable! Last Wednesday my scale read 154.4…this is what I saw this morning:

Ugh! Really? But what do you expect when you consumed six beers, or maybe eight, okay fine, more than that for New Years Eve! Luckily, consuming a LOT of water yesterday helped my scale somewhat this morning. But, I am really over the self-sabotage. I do this every weekend. So good during the week & I spend the weekends ruining it all! DONE! If I really want to get to my goal weight, I need to make some true lifestyle changes – so here we go!

My plan for this week to make certain next week’s scale is lower:

• chug my water! I’m seriously SO BAD AT THIS!
• Track, Track, Track! Why is this so hard? I have proven to myself in the past this makes a huge difference! 
• Move more! Now that I’ve been cleared to start doing some exercise by my surgeon I’m ready! Obviously can’t do much with my right arm, but the rest of my body can move darn-it!
• And the little weekly challenge by Erin & Alex – minus the planks (shoulder is not ready for those)

So I have my plan, I’m ready to rock! I will be kicking the crap out of my scale this week! Just wait & see! 

Until Next Time! 
*krisha*

Do you ever say this……

Tomorrow? Tomorrow I will do that. Tomorrow I will work out. Tomorrow I will plan my meals. Tomorrow I will go to the grocery store & buy some fruits. Are you like me & always seem to have an excuse for everything!

The problem for me is that when I push a workout off until tomorrow….
when I wake up that next morning I look in the mirror and hate how I look. 
Or maybe it is hating how tight my clothes are. 
Or that stupid number on the scale. 
Or in the summer time where once again I want to hide myself in my swimsuit just like I did last summer when I had vowed to myself that “next summer I will NOT feel like this.”

Well, today, I am going to work out. I am going to no matter what excuse I can find later. I do not mean I am going to do five minutes of sit-ups & count that as my activity for the day. 
What I mean is, today, I will sweat.

And, right now, when I say tomorrow I will sweat….Well I mean it.

Because:
I want to like the reflection in the mirror.
I want to see a picture & think to myself, “Damn, I look GOOD.”
I want to be proud of my hard work.
I want to prove that hard work pays off.
I want to get healthy & live healthy to be a role model.
I want to live life in the moment, not sit on the sidelines trying to figure out how to hide myself.
I want to show people I can do anything I set my mind to.
I want to prove to myself that, Yes, I am worth it.

Tomorrow, I want to be better than I was today. 

Until Next Time,
~Krisha~